Dear Blog i tot i would not use you anymore
but just when i tot…i tot of you again…
just had a random tot running thru my head while i was on the way home from work today
it’s been long…real long
i haven’t sat back and reflect about life…
but i just kinda did that over a short 30 mins just now
for all my life i have been focused on being outstanding
i wanted to be outstanding in school because if others could do it…i must do it better than them
i wanted to be outstanding at home because i was the eldest among all my cousins and i should thus do it best
i wanted to be outstanding among my frens because i had almost the best and there was no reason to be second best
i wanted to be outstanding in church because a leader should lead and do it well (of coz i do know that God’s love is not only for the outstanding..but that’s not the point..)
i wanted to be outstanding at work because i take on all my tasks with my utmost pride and sincerely
i just wanted to be outstanding in everything i do because as the only child at home…and i was trained to be outstanding
but little did i know that by being too outstanding…you might end up being out and standing
and i guess you will never understand that void within…until you get out…
